Saturday, January 08, 2011

2011 - week one.


Inspiration: (noun) the process of being mentally stimulated to do or feel something, especially to do something creative.

Inspire (verb) fill with the urge or ability to do something, especially creative.

It’s hard to be optimistic about 2011. Looking back on this first week makes me nauseous. There seem to be bad vibes all around - something dangerous looms ahead. To recap: Republicans assume “control” of the House, 1000 more Marines are being sent to Afghanistan, “my President” Obama nominates William Daley as the new White House Chief of Staff (a man with close ties to Boeing, J.P. Morgan Chase, and the son of Chicago's notorious Mayor Richard J. Daley). ...Go Capitalism! Apologies for my sarcasm, I'm disappointed with the way this "new year" has been rolling. Then again, something tells me, I’m not alone - “the American Dream” is a nightmare.

This afternoon, Arizona State Congresswoman Gabrielle Giffords was shot. She is still in critical condition. The shooter’s name and “reasons” have yet to be released (As of this writing.); but whatever the “motive” it's safe to say, the TV will be chattering about this for the next week. And why not? After all, this is nothing to take lightly. America is violence. ...Damn.

Hunter S. Thompson once asked, “Who can afford to give a fuck anymore?” I know I can’t. I work, pay bills, and take out the trash. Sure, I try to have a good time when I can. ...But, don’t we all?

This first week of 2011 has left a sour taste in my mouth. Maybe it’s the tax audit? ...Mounting debt? ...Family crises? ...Relationship decisions? ...Inability to feel like my job really matters? Actually, it’s all these things and -for the moment at least- they’ve got me in a limbo.

“A man not busy being born, is a busy being dying.” Damn right Bob Dylan - embrace the journey, don’t resist it! Despite how stable we try to make our lives, challenges will invariably arise to disrupt them. Just ask Job.

Take advice - don’t reject. Adapt. Grow. Accept reality. Move on. Evolve.

For now, I breathe, maintain and try to stay optimistic and inspired. After all, I cannot control everything only "deal with my own problems." I must start with my writing. So, today, instead of getting too wrapped-up in what's on TV (and our guests arrive for dinner and drinks), I’m going to just free-write on how I feel about the following things...

1.) Family/Friends:

2.) Job/Career:

3.) Relationship:

4.) Self:

But will not publish that writing here. It’s just too personal. You’ll need to check my Facebook...

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Instead, I leave you with these words from Chris Hedges...

“Orwell warned of a world where books were banned. Huxley warned of a world where no one wanted to read books. Orwell warned of a state of permanent war and fear. Huxley warned of a culture diverted by mindless pleasure. Orwell warned of a state where every conversation and thought was monitored and dissent was brutally punished. Huxley warned of a state where a population, preoccupied by trivia and gossip, no longer cared about truth or information. Orwell saw us frightened into submission. Huxley saw us seduced into submission. But Huxley, we are discovering, was merely the prelude to Orwell. Huxley understood the process by which we would be complicit in our own enslavement. Orwell understood the enslavement. Now that the corporate coup is over, we stand naked and defenseless. We are beginning to understand, as Karl Marx knew, that unfettered and unregulated capitalism is a brutal and revolutionary force that exploits human beings and the natural world until exhaustion or collapse.”

“We are moving from a society where we are skillfully manipulated by lies and illusions to one where we are overtly controlled.”

“We break souls as well as bodies. It is more effective."